My Heart is Broken

I lost my grandma, my best friend today. I am not sure what I am feeling at this moment. I just keep telling everyone that I am okay, but I can't convince my heart to be okay. I know my grandma is rejoicing in heaven with her Lord and Savior and my precious grandad. What a reunion that was...I wish I could have been there for it. I just wasn't ready for her to leave me.....I know how selfish that sounds we are never ready for them to leave, but I have so much I still need to say to her. I don't know how to tell my little man Brecken that his GiGi is in heaven. He was her little funny man....last night in hospice Brecken was in her room and he started crying and she sat up in bed and put her arms out to him. She had been unresponsive unitl that moment...her motherly/grandmotherly instincts were still with her. She wanted to know why her baby was crying. I am so glad that she has complete healing and her little body is not tired anymore. I am so glad I was blessed to have her as long as I did.

Grandma I love you with ALL of my heart and will love you with ALL my heart and can't wait for our beautiful reunion in heaven. You have shown me so much love and I can only hope you felt my love for you. Thank you for being at every ball game and special moment in my life. Neil and I will miss you sooo much and so will your little funny man. Love your Brandy Dan!