My Grandma and Brecken's GiGi

Today was one of the hardest days of my life. I had to say goodbye to my precious Grandma. She was the most amazing women that I know. She had such a love for people and hearing everyone talking about her today just reminded me of what a sweet spirit she had. These are the things that I will miss most about my Grandma....I don't have enough room for them all, but here are a few:

1. Her calling me on my birthday and singing happy birthday to me and at the end she would say and I really do love you!

2. Hearing her call me her Brandy-Dan!

3. Watching her eyes light up when she would see Brecken....he was her little funny man!

4. Watching her get in the floor and play with Brecken even though I know it took all her strength to do it; but if he asked his GiGi to play with him she would not pass it up. The last time she was at the house they sat in our entry way and she taught him how to play jacks. The best you can teach a 2 year old to play jacks :o)

5. Just hearing her voice and being able to talk to her about ANYTHING!

6. The fact that she will not be here when we welcome our new edition in May, but I know she will be watching over us in Heaven.

I will miss her with all of my heart. I feel like a piece of me is gone. I can't make my heart stop hurting; but I am so glad for her complete healing and her perfect body. I don't feel like I have made much sense, but I just feel like I need to write and write and write some more. Thanks for Listening!

My Heart is Broken

I lost my grandma, my best friend today. I am not sure what I am feeling at this moment. I just keep telling everyone that I am okay, but I can't convince my heart to be okay. I know my grandma is rejoicing in heaven with her Lord and Savior and my precious grandad. What a reunion that was...I wish I could have been there for it. I just wasn't ready for her to leave me.....I know how selfish that sounds we are never ready for them to leave, but I have so much I still need to say to her. I don't know how to tell my little man Brecken that his GiGi is in heaven. He was her little funny man....last night in hospice Brecken was in her room and he started crying and she sat up in bed and put her arms out to him. She had been unresponsive unitl that moment...her motherly/grandmotherly instincts were still with her. She wanted to know why her baby was crying. I am so glad that she has complete healing and her little body is not tired anymore. I am so glad I was blessed to have her as long as I did.

Grandma I love you with ALL of my heart and will love you with ALL my heart and can't wait for our beautiful reunion in heaven. You have shown me so much love and I can only hope you felt my love for you. Thank you for being at every ball game and special moment in my life. Neil and I will miss you sooo much and so will your little funny man. Love your Brandy Dan!

Slacker

So I have been on a major blog hiatus! I enjoying reading everyone elses blog that I forget to keep up with my own. So I will just pick up from here and not try to go back. We had a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend! I so look forward to an extra day off and and an extra day of family time. Brecken is getting so big...he has now started calling everyone pardner! Spoken like a true Texan. Him and Jamie were building an airplane and he said Thank You Pardner? Jamie looked at me and I was like I have no idea where that came from. I talked to Nana and he watched a new Yardigan's yesterday and they were Cowboys! So we are all Pardner's now :o)

So I have a question for anyone who might read this and have ANY advice. Neil and I have been talking and I do mean talking about trying for another kiddo! I have so many mixed emotions about it. I guess my question is....What is a good age difference 2 yrs, 3 yrs? I know that everyone has their own opinion, but I would just like to know what you think? I am also having a hard time with taking attention away from Brecken...not that he needs all of my attention. I just thought I was ready and got Neil all talked into it and now I am having mixed feelings about all of it. Any Advice?

Bedtime

As Brecken and I are sitting here having his bedtime milk and he is playing with Momma's hair. By the way this is the best part of my day; some cuddle time with my little man. I began to think about how blessed my life is. I had to give a ride at the shop today to a man that was 80 years old. He was talking about how short this life has been; about how quickly his 80 years had gone. The saying goes Life isn't about the breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away. I have had those wonderful moments in my life and just wanted to take some time to reflect on them. The moment I became a Christian, finding the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with and the blessing of becoming a mom are the ones I treasure most. I don't want to EVER take for granted that God has blessed my life beyond anything I could have ever hoped for. I have been so blessed to have an amazing family and friends that I love very dearly. I have got to share in many breath taking moments in others lives as well. One of the most special times for me was getting to be there...well outside the door when my neice Darby came into this world. I can't tell you what I felt in that moment. My baby sister became a Mom and I got to be there for that special moment. I just wanted to say to everyone that reads this...don't miss the moments! The moments come and go too quickly so cherish the moments that take your breath away!

The Beginning....

Well we decided to make a blog page for our little family. I have enjoyed keeping up with everyone through the blogspot pages so we decided to join in on the fun. I begin this first blog on a bit of a sad note. A family that we have known for a long time lost a precious daughter, granddaughter, and neice Lilly this past week. I have struggled all week to make some sense of such a profound loss. I am just asking for the prayers of anyone that might read this to lift up the Thomas Family as they need more strength now than ever before! I pray peace would come over this family to know they are loved and thought of daily.

Brecken is now a very active 2 year old and keeps his Mommy and Daddy running around all the time. He loves Veggie Tales, Cars, Monster's Inc., Toy Story, and last but not least The Backyardigans! We have DVR'd every episode of the Yardigan's as Brecken calls them, we can find. It is now a crazy obsession for him. Pablo is his favorite and he has to sleep with his Pablo animal and his Lightening McQueen car. We made Brecken a big boy room for his birthday. He is now sleeping in an official Big Boy Bed and is growing up way too fast! We are becoming very independent. I will post pics soon of the Big Boy room and of my new neice Darby. Can't to hear from anyone! Love and Blessings!