My Grandma and Brecken's GiGi

Today was one of the hardest days of my life. I had to say goodbye to my precious Grandma. She was the most amazing women that I know. She had such a love for people and hearing everyone talking about her today just reminded me of what a sweet spirit she had. These are the things that I will miss most about my Grandma....I don't have enough room for them all, but here are a few:

1. Her calling me on my birthday and singing happy birthday to me and at the end she would say and I really do love you!

2. Hearing her call me her Brandy-Dan!

3. Watching her eyes light up when she would see Brecken....he was her little funny man!

4. Watching her get in the floor and play with Brecken even though I know it took all her strength to do it; but if he asked his GiGi to play with him she would not pass it up. The last time she was at the house they sat in our entry way and she taught him how to play jacks. The best you can teach a 2 year old to play jacks :o)

5. Just hearing her voice and being able to talk to her about ANYTHING!

6. The fact that she will not be here when we welcome our new edition in May, but I know she will be watching over us in Heaven.

I will miss her with all of my heart. I feel like a piece of me is gone. I can't make my heart stop hurting; but I am so glad for her complete healing and her perfect body. I don't feel like I have made much sense, but I just feel like I need to write and write and write some more. Thanks for Listening!

My Heart is Broken

I lost my grandma, my best friend today. I am not sure what I am feeling at this moment. I just keep telling everyone that I am okay, but I can't convince my heart to be okay. I know my grandma is rejoicing in heaven with her Lord and Savior and my precious grandad. What a reunion that was...I wish I could have been there for it. I just wasn't ready for her to leave me.....I know how selfish that sounds we are never ready for them to leave, but I have so much I still need to say to her. I don't know how to tell my little man Brecken that his GiGi is in heaven. He was her little funny man....last night in hospice Brecken was in her room and he started crying and she sat up in bed and put her arms out to him. She had been unresponsive unitl that moment...her motherly/grandmotherly instincts were still with her. She wanted to know why her baby was crying. I am so glad that she has complete healing and her little body is not tired anymore. I am so glad I was blessed to have her as long as I did.

Grandma I love you with ALL of my heart and will love you with ALL my heart and can't wait for our beautiful reunion in heaven. You have shown me so much love and I can only hope you felt my love for you. Thank you for being at every ball game and special moment in my life. Neil and I will miss you sooo much and so will your little funny man. Love your Brandy Dan!